I trusted him and agreed to talk about our relationship that same night. It seemed that we were on the same page and agreed that we could take it more slowly. We fell asleep together in my bed after talking. I was not aware of how upset and desperate he truly was to get married in spite of our conversation. He felt I was playing him for a fool. I had absolutely no idea how distressed he was until I woke up pinned under him. In my slumbering state of mind, I was very confused about what was happening around me. I recall his eyes; they were so cold and evil. I tried fighting against him but with his weight on me, I could not push him away. I felt him thrust with such ferocity that my whole body shuddered with pure raw pain as my entire world shattered into millions of fragments. I felt the piercing and slicing, almost numbing from his brutality. I was scared and stunned as I realized he had just raped me. He left me to weep and headed for the bathroom.